This is; just like the character, hardly finished and not-at-all set in concrete.
I have an (admittedly terrible) habit of reworking character concepts while they're still new and unknown, but I'd like to think that I'll be sticking with /this/ particular line of thought for the foreseeable future.
Originally, Samiylo was meant to be a silly little thief guy, but I, and I struggle to understand why; cannot get myself to roleplay it. I'm stuck in a rut where the majority of my characters inevitably morph into "vaguely polite guy with a little bit of mischief, but otherwise kind heart." And no matter how many servers I try; playing someone whose 'evil', or 'chaotic' just isn't something I seem to be able to pull off on an OOC level. I've played bastards, but they're more 'ends-justify-the-otherwise-righteous-means' sorts of bastards.
So, I am choosing to lean into my problem. What if I made a character who was the epitome of a lifeless wallflower with a complete lack of self, whom lacked any sense of drive, and is suffering from; essentially, ego death. Someone so milquetoast, bland, and unstructured that I will inevitably get pissed off at my decision to play this character that, on an OOC level, I will figure out how to make him chaotic and exciting.
Carrd updated!
Seems I've stuck with Samiylo.
It's been good. I've been questioned by someone whether or not I'm 'having fun' with Samiylo, and honestly? Not always. Sometimes, I do want to break out and 'take stage', but it's an old habit, one I want to work away. I've played enough 'main-character-y' sorts for long enough. I wanted somebody who can effortlessly blend into the background, yet; is always present in the minds of those who've put in some effort to seek him out and try to figure out who or what he is.
The TL;DR?
It's been good. Cheers.
Also, FIND OUT MORE ICLY.
:)
Fairly substantial changes the Carrd.
I did not want to redecorate it, on account of being horrible at designing with Carrd. I might switch to a google doc, or simply have it all done in-forum-post.
I don't like this update, in all honesty. It clashes with my belief that "everything must be found out ICly", but I already broke that with my lore post, didn't I? I might go and change it in the future, but for now; this works. Frankly, I don't even know if I ever *will* finish the relations page. In my opinion, if Samiylo *has* an opinion on you; it's fairly easily read and understood in direct interaction with him. If you can't understand what he thinks about you- chances are; it's nothing! Relations pages are one of those things that just never sit well with me on account of metagaming and all that. Samiylo is meant to an unreadable mess of a person, who you're sort of forced to interact with and pick apart or simply accept that he is a perpetual wild-card in your presence.
We'll see how this works out, it is meant to represent a changing Samiylo, which has been fairly exciting to play! (Nobody will believe this).
Might run for council just so I can score the legendary "nominee with 0 votes" medal on Samiylo.
There's so much I have purposefully left out, at the very least. I would've absolutely hated writing a full on detailed retelling of Sami's major personal events during the seven-or-eight-or-nine-ish months he's been around.
